ANGRY AS HELL!

Had to stay home from school today and yesterday because my cold was kicking my butt.My literature grade is probably down in the low thirties now. My other grades are just fine. Literature is the hardest because the teacher is stone age basically and she is so lame. At this moment in time, I officially hate Shakespeare. Who ever it was who started the tradition of studying him in schools...I hope they aren't happy...or at least as miserable as I am. Odds are we're giong to have to recite some of the stuff in the play. If I have to participate, I will play the Capulet's stupid servant. He has but one part, at least I think he does. I want to play someone who has one paragraph to say in the story so I can read it and go about my business.

My parents tell me that I shouldn't have a crush on Michael because I don't know him that well. I also shouldn't overlook the guys I hang out with because that's more important than some cute guy I just met. Well, you know what, I'm just not attracted to the guys I hang out with, and Michael has a girlfriend. I'm just not going to bother with it. For some reason, I'm just not attractive to the guys that I like. If I have to, I'll just be one of those old hags who lives with a bunch of cats and dies a virgin since I'm basically not allowed to like guys outside my friend circle. I tried that whole liking your friends first before liking people you don't know, and I got my feelings hurt, twice.
My parents, AND his parents, told me that he was just taking advantage of me for so many reasons unknown, and it was 75% true. So, if that's going to be the case with cute guys AND guys that I know well enough to trust with a piece of my feelings, then fuck it. If I find someone cute who is interested in me, I'll just be his friend first. I don't care anymore.

I mean for some reason, I have not been liked by guys I have crushes on. Usually they are really rude to me. The one time I find a guy who is decent to me and doesn't start judging me first hand, he ends up having a girlfriend, he's not interested and my parents keep saying that he's just acting to get my help on academic subjects. I can't stand that. Then when I do ask if I can start dating they say that I can't because THEIR PARENTS wouldn't let them date until they were sixteen. THAT TOTALLY SUCKS! It's not even taht I want to be like everyone else. It's just like I said before. If a cute guy EVER asked me out at my age now, I would have to say "no" because I can't date. Then again, THAT wouldn't happen either because I'm not attractive, remember?

I'm going to go get ready for school tomorrow....

Later,
K.Girl