Stressed Out: Highschool Style

Okay anyway, continuing on my rant, I still have a crush on Michael. I know he has a girlfriend and I've tried getting to know him twice and it didn't work. When tell myself he doesn't care that works too, but when he waves at me or stares at me and smiles I can't help but want to be friends and get to know him better. I'm WAY TO SHY to just walk up to him and start talking to him or ask him for his e-mail address because of fear of rejection or embarrassment. My biology class is okay, it's a little hard and I can get help from friends and the teacher. My algebra class is okay too. I have a 81 and a 92 in those classes. My troubles are orchestra and literature. I'm not failing orchestra, it's just that the concert is Thursday and me myself and I sound terrible. I'm going to get put in the back of the class because I'm out of tune sometimes [a little more often that usual. I don't have a perfection peg Cello like I used to. She assigned Cellos and Aaron gets to play the brand new one while I get stuck with a hard to tune, extra sensitive Cello.]. I'm not liking that class. If I'm in first chair and I play a wrong note, she will bite my head off literally. I don't want to get kicked out of orchestra. I like playing my Cello and private lessons are too expensive. I'm failing literature and I really hate that class. It's really irritating [we are doing Romeo and Juliet and I can't understand anything they are saying because it's in Olde English Tongues]. The teacher is the lamest excuse for a teacher and that class is no where near exciting. It's one of those classes you would love to skip, but I can't because I'm afraid of the consequences from the staff and my parents. It's too much to deal with right now. I want a boyfriend, but when I mentioned that feeling to my Dad, he basically said no way until your finished getting your life together [education, career, lifestyle, etc...]. It may not seem like a big deal, but for someone who has been known to be annoying and disliked all around by boys, period, it would be a big thing if someone did ask me out. It would really mean alot if they did.

Going to take a nap now because I'm really sleepy and depressed.

Later.
K.Girl